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May 7 2014
My Yin and Yang

There is a correlation between obstacles, even when they are opposite purpose. With each marathon I suffer from the effects of training differently. So far it has NOT yet stopped me from an event, but for this fifth marathon, I thought blogging would give stability in the training. Maybe by writing about the charm and challenges I would distract myself from the inevitable stresses and doubts encountered.

Each event has been a different emotional journey I have LOVED for different reasons. Much of the knowledge is about myself, so to manage the psyche from becoming the dominator of training by writing seemed reasonable counter balance. The consequence is the traditional angst of running is actually being supported by the writing…at least for the past few weeks. It was gradually established in the most important portion of physical training for HFM Marathon and also writing this blog.

Physical training for an event is always a combination of excitement and challenge. With 4 marathons, several other events including the Tough Mudder in Oshkosh last September, I have MORE physical and emotional information to process. Training has been a relatively smooth progression and with less than 2 months left in training; as if in the training plan, my psyche struck with pin point accuracy at every fear I have of what I face.   My subconscious is providing a fair amount of negativity. 

  • Twenty-six point two miles of running; within a 6 hour span start to finish.

  • So WHAT if it is a flat beautiful course????… it’s 26.2 miles

  • Small, friendly, friends and people I know may see me fail

  • I drive into Manitowoc, 1 mile away from my home… 26.2 miles, really ?

  • Isn’t Sheboygan about 26.2 miles away??

  • When will I learned to keep my big mouth shut?!

  • Yes, I am obsessing on the distance … 26.2 miles.

So even if my physical and aerobic training is going well, writing “jogged” memories of past hurdles, and it affects training, food consumption and sleep and reminded me of current limits. YES we are back on that road again. This psyche is an educated adversary; the Yin to my Yang in this journey to the HFM Marathon. If it proves successful in dismantling my resolve; or if it changes little ahead on the process and completion of Marathon 5, it is just part of the journey… and some more legitimate thoughts I did have dismissed in the past and wonder IF any share similar thoughts. Were you able to move forward?  How?

  1. Will my legs hold up?

  2. Will I know how much liquid to drink on race day?

  3. Should I get new shoes now?

  4. Why is a marathon 26.2 miles?

  5. Is there still time to back out???

  6. Why am I crying?

  7. I can’t sleep!

  8. My dreams are all about problems!

  9. What if I get hurt?

  10. Am I going to die?

  11. What was I thinking?

  12. Am I crazy?

  13. ???  add yours...

The 5th Marathon Medal has great significance
to me and I am willing to work for it. This portion of training is the most difficult for me… self doubt. I hope today my physical and emotional discussions are realistic and I prevail to complete this event. But my psyche does not play fair and does not recognize boundaries when it creeps into my head. So I will not know until the finish and new conditions are overcome, so I train one day at a time.

Additionally;  my congratulations to 39-year-old Meb Keflezighi, the first USA citizen to win the Boston Marathon in 30+ years. It was a personal record of 2:08:37 and Meb is still a runner with obstacles.

Rem will be blogging about this training journey, thoughts and experiences as she prepares for the HFM Maritime Marathon on June 22.  Watch for her posts about every two weeks.

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Jennifer Harrison May 8, 2014 at 07:57 am

Hi Rem! I have been thinking about you. We should get together in the next couple of weeks. I raced my 70.3 last week and I want to tell you about it and how your training helped me! As far as your training and the blog post, you have the power to change your thoughts, so accentuate the positive. Focus on the training you've done and DO NOT get overwhelmed by the distance. One mile at a time, Rem! Visualize yourself as the strong woman you are. Visualize yourself running well and feeling good in the race. And visualize yourself crossing that finish line! Tell the bad voice to shut up and use profanity if necessary :) See you soon. Jenny

rem bridgford May 16, 2014 at 10:24 am

Thanks Jenny, It is not my usual journey. But I am putting whatever I can into the training. This one is JUST for the Finish medal. On ward. Good Running

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